Self Check In

Since caring for my nervous system is my number one priority, I will be adjusting my thought patterns during the day to look out for my own wellness.

I can easily wake up thinking about projects like Swell or Groupify. Things I need to do, things I'm not doing well, things I don't want to do be need to, things I wish the team was doing differently... These thoughts come so fast and so quickly and take up a lot of energy.

What if I gently guided myself back to me. Take a pause as soon as I wake up, and be with myself. Be with my breath. Be so extremely kind and gentle when my thoughts drift off. As I'm walking around prepping my morning lemon water and l-glutamine drink, I can guide my thoughts to the present moment and the healing I am creating. This right now is LIFE. I am am living, I am not working on anything else. I am just doing the task that is in front of me.

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