Working while Spiritual Awakening

Work has become such a secondary thing in my life. I want to pursue what really speaks to my soul, and right now that's honestly just sitting with myself and connecting to self. Processing deep loving kindness...

My ADHD also has kicked into high gear. Partly blaming this on the steroids I'm on for the next few weeks for this Crohn's flare I'm having. I want to connect to people in Cody's 30 Challenge, I want to create our community so I can be in this with him and we can just do this as a living, I want to build abundance, I want to ideate and sit in the visions we have of the future.

I don't really want to sit at a computer and do product design work for Swell. But... I DO want to have the financial stability that Swell provides, whilst pursuing our other endeavors.

Can I have a co-creative relationship with my full time work, and the desires of my heart?

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